No plan “B”
    I’m a planner. When I went to college, I knew exactly what I wanted my major to be and was pretty confident in where that major would lead me post college. I was willing to do God’s will, but I also wanted it to fit within the parameters that I had already planned for my life. Over the past year and half, God has slowly broken down that wall that I had built up between us.

    When I graduated from JMU, I was sure that I was going to be doing an urban ministry program in England, I even graduated early from JMU just so I could start the program in January. Then things just started to not work out with that program. I was devastated. I found myself questioning God and His will for my life. I had a really hard time trusting that He knew what He was doing since I had already found such a “perfect” way to serve Him. Eventually,  God led me to a program in inner city Houston called Mission Year and there taught me amazing things about what it means to live and serve amongst the broken and how I myself am a broken person apart from Christ. That program led me here to Acts 2 where I am once again learning that my ways are not His ways and His thoughts are not my thoughts. I am so excited about the things that God will do through this ministry and the things that I will continue to learn about His character as I daily surrender to His plans for each day.

    The point is that God knew what He was and is doing whether I chose to acknowledge that fact. When I am surrendered to God’s will and not focused in on my own fleshly desire for a definite picture of where my life is going, God is free to work out the plan for my life that He always had. Even more beautiful than that, even when I stray and try to do my own thing, God is able to bring me back onto His path. Sometimes that process is painful but it is always worth it and I can rejoice in knowing that God loves me enough to bring me back, that He doesn’t throw up His hands like I would be tempted to do the third (or thirtieth) time that I try to “help” Him. He is faithful. God is to be trusted.